the not weekend

non-sleeping for first time in the semester. not feeling stress. not feeling pain at the car crash. not loosing the life that day. not hanging around with friends. not sleeping that good. not giving the congrats to the forgiven ones. not reading a lot. not hearing those records that have a meaning. not taking a shower. not thinking nothing for a great period of time. not having sex. not having this idea that my legs are ugly. not listening to those i love. not having the feeling i can't talk again to some persons. not thinking about you. not saying the truth of the last thing i wrote. not repeating the same story again. not having alcohol in my veins. not reading medical stuff. not wishing things to happen again or at all. not feeling sad or lonely. not having a choice for christmas. not your image in my head. not nothing at all. not remembering i wrote to you in your bd. not. not. not